I feel your pain....literally

4 of 5.  One thing that has made my life difficult is that I can't "not" feel for other people no matter how bad, evil, awful, or even good they are. I sometimes cry when I hear somebody was executed even if I don't even know what they did. I feel worse for what other people go through than I do for myself and I wonder if I have just numbed myself to my own feelings because they can sometimes be self defeating.  I have all the time in the world to empathize for others, strangers, dead animals along the highway. I cry when I pass a dead dog on the street. Even a skunk or possum.  Just saying that lets me in on why I am this way. Even a skunk or a possum. As though any life is any less valuable than any other. We are all here but for a short time. When that time is shortened abruptly, or deliberately I feel physical pain. I mourn the loss of everything. My mother and father at one point regretted getting a swimming pool when I was a child because I would lay by the pool and pull insects and frogs out of it.  I would not sleep at night because I would know a chipmunk may have fallen into the pool and might get sucked into the filter. When Saddam Hussein was hung I did not dance in the street nor cheer. I did not like what he did of course but I do not like what was done either.  I loath and despise the deliberate taking of life. Of course I might feel differently if somebody hurt my dog, or kidnapped Kevin, or hurt his mom, but instead of killing them I would rather try to get through to them. I spend many hours each day drifting off on seemingly morbid thoughts yet somehow manage each day to laugh and carry on and act as though it is all just part of life.  It literally causes me pain when something, someone suffers. I am not scared of death, I just despise killers. I am realistic when it comes to the cycle of life but I am confused when people step in and alter it's course. When I hear that our Government is torturing people I go into a tailspin. I am so full of shame by association.  I want desperately to help them no matter how bad they are.  Torture is the least human trait in a person. When I see the Coliseum in Rome I don't hear romantic music, or think of beauty and love.  I think of torture and death and I grieve for all those who perished as a spectacle for the masses. I do not take the human condition lightly.  I feel your pain. I try every day to cause as little as I can.